Authoress’ Note: I haven’t updated recently. Finals are in a couple of weeks, and it’s been keeping me busy. The writer’s block hasn’t been helping either.
I’m dissatisfied with my dancing. It’s only in one sense. As a student, I am very pleased with my progress. Maybe you’ll see a post about my participation in a major, out-of-state competition. Who knows? Unfortunately, the social aspect of it hasn’t been going as well.
I admit that I am greedy when it comes to dancing. I like it when my studio socials are smaller. There’s an aspect of familiarity when its only us regulars. (We mostly have wedding couples, or those that are just trying to get their feet wet.) It also means that I can have more dances with my teacher. Then, there’s the opposite situation. At bigger socials, I don’t get to dance as much with him because the students newer to dancing understandably get priority over people who have a bit more experience. I know this because that’s the way it was when I was first honing my skills. Ugh, you know you’re getting too selfish when you start counting how many dances you get with him versus how much he dances with other people.
Now that I’ve gotten the ugly out, what am I going to do? Obviously, I don’t like these feelings. I brought this up with someone close, and she suggested something I’ve never really thought about before. Why not just dance socially more? It’s okay to stick to your studio for training, but there’s nothing wrong with going out to dance clubs because you want dance with more male leads. I don’t really have time at the moment because finals are in about two weeks. However, when summer comes, what’s gonna stop me? Man, I can’t wait for summer!